Let the Praise Music Begin!

Jesus Washes Over Me... 

I find myself avoiding music.  

I find myself walling myself in with focus on duties...

Work, laundry, cooking, housework...
Upbeat that doesn't reach deep inside...
Celebrating every small accomplishment...
Avoiding music and real emotions...

Then I force myself to listen to what I was avoiding.

I choose to praise no matter my circumstances or emotions.

Then Jesus washes all over me.

Then the tears start.

I wish I could hold Nehemiah again.

I wish I could see his little lips go "Ohhhh" 

as I tell him stories and sing him songs
about how wonderful Jesus is.

Then Jesus washes over me like a wave.
Then He soothes me like a salve.
And I realize...
Ohhhhh, how true the songs were.

As Jesus washes over me...

As the tears flow....

I realize just how really, truly wonderful Jesus is...

I am sad,
and I am happy...

Jesus is so, so very, very.... 

He is all I promised Nehemiah He was.

And one day... 

I will live with them.